HTDWT – Chapter 45

Chapter 45 – Love the Most

Before they could even finish their meal, both of them were overcome with fever. Xu Bai Chuan’s condition was slightly better. Over the years, he hadn’t broken the habit of going on morning runs so there was a clear improvement in his health after getting an infusion. On the contrary, Tang Jin didn’t have it that easy. As his fever reached 40°C, he lay down on the bed in a daze while calling out Xu Bai Chuan’s name.

Xu Bai Chuan kept a close eye on him. He felt that time returned to three years ago. Tang Jin was still that Tang Jin, but it seemed like something changed.

During her visit, Tang Jin’s mother Yin Sulan knitted her brows once she saw Xu Bai Chuan. Unexpectedly, she didn’t say anything when she heard Tang Jin’s murmuring. She nodded towards Xu Bai Chuan as she left and stiffly said, “I’ll leave Yuan Yuan in your hands.”

The words spoken that year echoed by his ears. Yin Sulan had said that after leaving the Tang household doors, it won’t be that easy to enter again. But now she was saying these words which were a slap to her face. In her life, this was already a rare compromise.

Cheng Xu visited once. He only sat for a while and after looking at two people with their arms coiled together, he jokingly said he was redundant. Before he took off, Cheng Xu told Xu Bai Chuan that Tang Jin stubbornly went against his parents after he left and left the company to start up his own small company, his business thriving. Word was that he invested in some drama recently.

Xu Bai Chuan keenly asked for the name of the drama. As it turned out, it was the book he sold the copyright for some time ago.

Later on, Xu Yuanshan came to give a tearful apology and brought up the events of that day. It turned out that when Tang Jin realized that the weather was amiss, he called Xu Bai Chuan several times but couldn’t get a hold of him. Seeing the weather worsen, he immediately drove towards Wuling Mountain where it was already sleeting the moment he arrived. Following the path up, it wasn’t long before he came across Xu Yuanshan who was holding a stick, crying as he walked down. He came to know about Xu Bai Chuan sliding down the mountain and immediately returned to his car to get mountain ropes. Then he told Xu Yuanshan to call the police and get people up there before coming to the rescue.

Xu Bai Chuan sat by the bed, looking at Tang Jin who was sleeping restlessly. He murmured, “Are you an idiot?”

Late into the night, Xu Bai Chuan awoke from a nightmare, realizing that he somehow ended up lying in bed with his injured arm exposed. The moment he slightly turned his head, he saw Tang Jin’s sleeping face.

Slowly sticking their foreheads together, Xu Bai Chuan felt that Tang Jin’s forehead was no longer burning. The moment he was about the retreat, he found that Tang Jin had already opened his eyes.

Both widened eyes and small eyes stared fixedly at each other for a long time. Tang Jin moved closer very carefully, and since Xu Bai Chuan didn’t avoid it, their two lips stuck together. In the tranquil hospital room, the kiss shared between the two miserable men became deeper and deeper.

Both of them were slightly gasping after the kiss. Tang Jin insisted on sticking to Xu Bai Chuan. After a long time, he asked, “8012. Mr. Xu, can you give me a chance to pursue you?”


Both of them left the hospital after their fevers were gone. After three and a half years of separation, Xu Bai Chuan set foot in the house he lived in with Tang Jin once again. Everything was arranged as before, as if time never passed through here. He returned to his room and found that there was nothing different about his belongings before he left, even the paper which had fallen on the ground was untouched. Someone had carefully avoided all the traces he had left and preserved this room very well.

He closed the door, walked around the villa, and finally ended up at Tang Jin’s study. Once he saw that comical kitten, the memory of breaking the kitten leaped before his eyes. Drawing near, Xu Bai Chuan stared at the kitten and his mind suddenly cleared. He pressed down on the kitten’s tail and a bamboo stick slowly rose from the kitten’s head. Xu Bai Chuan couldn’t help chuckling.

That bamboo stick which originally had Xu Bai Chuan’s handwriting was completely blotted out by black ink so there was no mark, and the printed text was also crossed out. The corner space of the bamboo stick was replaced by somebody else’s handwriting and a different name:

Love the most

Xu Bai Chuan

Tang Jin didn’t see Xu Bai Chuan for a short while. Thinking that he had left, he thudded upstairs and flusteredly shouted, “Xu Bai Chuan!”

Xu Bai Chuan answered him from inside the room. An odd feeling arose in his heart as he lightly stroked the small bamboo stick, lamenting that ten years have already gone by.

There is love that is smooth sailing. Yet there is also love like his and Tang Jin’s. A love of mutually tormenting one another until both are covered in bruises. Meeting again after all these years, his heart still beats.

It may be absurd, and also ridiculous. Since life is bound to have some regrets, then there is no difference between holding onto regrets alone or wrongly giving his heart away. Rather, one should just live in the moment.

Tang Jin quickly walked into the room. Looking at that kitten, he felt somewhat uneasy as he said, “The old one was placed there for so long that I had forgotten what was inside…After you switched it, I changed the words. Although I wanted to show you, I felt too embarrassed to say anything. I never thought that you’ll only see it now.”

Xu Bai Chuan let go and the bamboo stick slowly lowered to its original position. Turning around to face Tang Jin, he smiled. “That’s okay, it’s not too late.”

T/N: A big thank you to everyone who held on to the end. I know it was a frustrating read. Really. QAQ About the extras, I’m not sure whether I want to translate or summarise them as of yet. Will update later. Well thank you once again!

SPOILERS: About extras We get Tang Jin & Cheng Xu POV, both from the past and in the future.
UPDATE Click on this link for more details.

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20 thoughts on “HTDWT – Chapter 45

    1. I agree. On my first read through, I wanted a HE so desperately, but while translating and reading things through for god knows how many times, BE might not have been a bad idea for this one.
      And thanks so much for sticking it out til the end. I know how much you wanted to strangle TJ lol 😆

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      1. Yeah, he’s still a jerk in my opinion. Even with 3 years apart, he may have change, but his attempt on chasing Xu Bai Chuan is just enough.
        I feel like the author is confused in how to prolong the story or giving the appropriate ending. It had such a good start.
        Anyways, I still appreciate everything that you’ve done. I’ll be looking forward for your new work, but please take your time. Remember to stay healthy.

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  1. nicque nadine

    ah… it ended already. 😦
    kinda wishing there would be more story of tangjin chasing bai chuan, but then again, with how stubborn bai chuan was, the pursuit would definitely ending being too heartbreaking and sad.
    the time apart is important,
    as it lets bai chuan to let go his pain and to let tangjin to grow up

    thanks for all the work, i most of the times didnt leave any comment as i usually dunno what to say, but this novel is one of the few stories that i always look forward to read every single week.

    i would love to read the extra, but reading the main story is already amazing enough
    so once again thank you


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      1. Scorpiongeminis

        Thank you very much for translating this story, I was left with a bitter aftertaste, I even cried a little while reading it, I feel that the uncomfortable feeling will remain in me for a while, I do not feel in the mood to read the specials. I agree that a BE would not have been bad for this story. Thanks again and sorry for my poor English.

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  2. dona6842

    Ahh I really want Tang Jins POV!! I really want to know what the hell he was thinking those past 7 years they spend together and how he rationales his and his family’s behavior against MC. Even now I really don’t think he deserves him

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  3. XYZ

    Lol yea, the extras from TJs’ point of view sound a bit frustrating but if there’s one where our stupid CP is being lovey dovey i’m all for it.

    AND congrats on finishing translation!! you seriously did great. nice, coherent sentences with no typos and consistent updates. GOOD JOB ❤❤

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  4. Anna Yuzuru

    This novel was an amazing journey! Thank you for all your hard work! The updates of this novel was my favorite thing every week, even though sometimes the chapters were so damn painful. I will miss this story ❤ I will be happy to read extras, of course, but also will be happy with just extras summery too. Whichever you prefer.
    I hope one day you will be inspired enough to translate another story ❤ I would love that.
    Or a write a post with recs for you other favorite novels.

    I feel really warm inside now after finishing. I treasure every minute of that journey. Thank you for bringing that story to us ❤ it was amazing!

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  5. Yay, the main story is over! I wonder if the author had trouble figuring out how to write a happy ending. I’m oddly fond of this story because misunderstandings are my jam, but it’s definitely frustrating that all of this could have been avoided if both characters were more honest. However, it would be against their personalities if that were the case. 😅 Both characters really needed time apart before they could get back together. Tang Jin needed to lose XBC to get over his pride.

    Hopefully we’ll get to see the extras! I look forward to TJ’s POV. CX is probably going to make me feel bad because unrequited love always gets me in the heart even though he deserved to get rejected.

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  6. meanight

    Is it a HE or is it a BE i don’t even know anymore… The relationship could crumble at any time but they are currently happy so maybe it’s a HE?

    Anyway, thanks for translating this!! Thank you for your patience in translating and updating, and it feels really amazing to have arrived at the end of a journey. Thank you again for being my “tour guide”!

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  7. rainxd

    I’m glad that the ending is here but I’m really curious about the time of misconnections between the two of them and the reason that no birthday words or presents were given.

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  8. Ry Ma

    Though I felt like the ending could have been better, and felt like the ml haven’t really suffered enough, Still I’m thankful for you translating this novel. Thank you so so much ♥️


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